Wednesday, October 8, 2008
8:32 AM
Today had quite a good day but also abit bad....well....for the good part....i learned quite alot of things in training restaurant today...had quite alot of funny too cause got a few funny moments....well for the bad part of today....i lost my cool today....dun knw y i have been losing my cool so easily for these past few days....i really regretted losing my cool today.....i think i made two person angry today or maybe more i do not knw but i am sure i have made one angry today.....i wont mention who.....i seriously do not know y i keep losing my cool....last time i wasnt like that and it is because of a girl(it is nt who u think it is....it is someone else)....i seriously miss those days...i really wish to change back to my old self...i am now struggling on the inside to try and change....until it really hurts....i also have been praying to God for help....i am struggling...i also wish for someone to help me....well now here is a prayer to u God....dear God....i am really struggling on the inside to change myself until it hurts.....i really need ur help Lord.....even though i appear happy on the outside u knw wat is going on deep down inside me....i am really struggling and deeply hurt on the inside....i pray and hope that u will help me through this period of time.....i pray that u will help me come out a better person after this period of diffculty...and i also pray that u will help me improve my relationship with my friends....i also pray that u will help me to keep my cool....i knw that u will help me Lord so i am entrusting my life to u Lord....and in Jesus name i pray...amen...this is my prayer to u Lord....i have also made quite a bad impression to a few ppl lately...i really hope to change those bad impressions....i also want to say sorry to a few ppl that i have offended, made angry and also hurt....first of all is to germaine...i am sorry for all the things i have said to u in ur blog the last time....i know it is quite hard for u to forgive me cause i have made u really angry.....i can understand how u feel.....i am deeply sorry....second of all is to esther....i am sorry for all the times i have vented my anger at u...i know that u do nt like it....i am sorry...i am also trying to change le.....i am struggling to change but i will continue to carry on to change cause i know tat it is for my own good...i thank u for letting me know that i have nt changed....it has seriously woken me up....i am deeply sorry for making u angry....third of all is chocolate(esther's mei).....i am sorry if i have frighten u by wat i said to u in germaine blog....i am sorry for that....fourth of all is serene....i am sorry if i ever offended u in germaine's blog for that incident.....fifth of all is daryl....i am sorry for all the times i have screwed up in all the project that i have done with u...i am sorry...sixth is to jiayu...i am sorry for going to ur blog to tagged and called u fishy....i am sorry for that.....knw that it is nt really nice....sorry.....last but not least is to my parents.....i am sorry i have nt been a good son.....i am also sorry for all things i have done to make the both of u worry and angry....i am sorry.....i promise u that from today onwards i will be a better son.....to end all of these.....i would say to thes ppl i am really sorry......well.....i will change for the better even though it can be a painful struggle but i will carry on for my own good....i am going to turn over a new leaf......and also if anyone of you find that i am returning back to my old self during this period of time i am turning over.....pls do let me knw without holding back....even if u have to scold me pls do....i will really appreciate it...,well.....before i go to bed...i am going to tell myself to turn ove a new leaf.....now going to go to bed le...bye